the gift

Hold me now I need to feel relief
Like I never wanted anything
I suppose I'll let this go and find a reason I'll hold on to
I'm so ashamed of defeat
And I'm out of reason to believe in me
I'm out of trying to get by

I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the path I'm living on
I'm right on the wrong side of it all

I can't face myself when I wake up
And look inside a mirror
I'm so ashamed of that thing
I suppose I'll let it go
Until I have something more to say for me
I'm so afraid of defeat
And I'm out of reason to believe in me
I'm out of trying to defy

I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the path I'm living on
I'm right on the wrong side of it all

Hold me now I need to feel complete
Like I matter to the one i need

I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the path living on
I'm right on the wrong side of it all

Now I'm ashamed of this
I am so ashamed of this
Now I'm so ashamed of me
I am so ashamed of me...

unknown

this doubt is screaming in my face
in this familiar place,
sheltered and concealed
and if this night won't let me rest
don't let me second guess
what i know to be real put away
all i know for tonight and maybe i just might learn
to let it go take my security from me
and maybe finally i won't have to know everything
i am falling into grace to the unknown to where you are
and faith makes everybody scared it's the unknown,
the don't-know that keeps me hanging on
to you i got nothing left to defend
i cannot pretend that everything makes sense
but does it really matter now if i do not know how
to figure this thing out
i am falling into grace to the unknown to where you are
and faith makes everybody scared it's the unknown,
the don't-know that keeps me hanging on
to you i am against myself again trying to fit
these pieces in walking on a cloud of dust to get to you

I seem..

to have cease to exist in cyberspace. How interesting, no more digital baths, pardon me i'll never be the same again

crestfallen

Who am I to need you when I'm down
Where are you when I need you around
Your life is not your own

And all I ask you
Is for another chance
Another way around you
To live by circumstance, once again

Who am I to need you now
To ask you why to tell you no
To deserve your love and sympathy
You were never meant to belong to me

And you may go, but I know you won't leave
Too many years built into memories
Your life is not your own

Who am I to need you now
To ask you why to tell you no
To deserve your love and sympathy
You were never meant to belong to me

Who am I to you?
Along the way
I lost my faith

And as you were, you'll be again
To mold like clay, to break like dirt
To tear me uo in your sympathy
You were never meant to belong to me
You were never meant to belong to me
You were never meant to belong to me

Who am I?

fine again

It seems like every day’s the same
and I’m left to discover on my own
It seems like everything is gray
and there’s no color to behold
They say it’s over and I’m fine again, yeah
Try to stay sober feels like I’m dying here

And I am aware now of how
everything’s gonna be fine one day
Too late, I’m in hell I am prepared now,
seems everyone’s gonna be fine
One day too late, just as well

I feel the dream in me expire
and there’s no one left to blame it on
I hear you label me a liar
‘cause I can’t seem to get this through
You say it’s over, I can sigh again, yeah
Why try to stay sober when I’m dying here

And I am aware now of how
everything’s gonna be fine one day
Too late, I’m in hell
I am prepared now,
seems everyone’s gonna be fine
One day too late; just as well

And I’m not scared now.
I must assure you,
you’re never gonna get away
And I’m not scared now.
And I’m not scared now. No…

I am aware now of how
everything’s gonna be fine one day
Too late, I’m in hell
I am prepared now
seems everyone’s gonna be fine
One day too late, just as well
I am prepared now,
seems everything’s gonna be fine for me
For me; for myself.
For me, for me, for myself
For me, for me, for myself


words by - Seether

another late night

enchanting, melodic of both low and high tempo mix of zero 7's fav songs by artists we never knew existed. love this album it's like a long journey of acoustic adventure the 1st track links right into the 2nd and so on so forth it never feels like the song ever changed it seems like just one long song.=]] i don't believe its possible to find this album here so yeah in this case i'd say download it cause it's brilliant.

i just found out this is just one of a series of mixes by famos artists or bands of their fav songs called Late Night Tales so we know what inspires them and stuff, cool. Ill check out what other artists i listen to has done a Late Night Tales mix too =D

no ordinary love.

currently listening to: Deftones

Sigh, I'm at it once again. Actually it's gettin worst this time I went to bed at 11 something and woke up at 3, idiotic. So all I've resorted to doing now is loop this Deftones song i seem to be addicted to lately, 'No ordinary love' and Smashing Pumpkin's Mayonnaise. Contrarily to what you might think, no this post won't involve anything to do with love or at least me and what I have to say about love, despite of the title.

What's making things worst is my Live Messenger seemed to have really fucked up, it keeps crashing, why can't i bloody sleep through the night like a normal person.This is stupid, hungry with nothing to eat, bored with nothing to do and lonely with no company, bravo. Ahh but I'd argue too that the silence of the night has always been my best company along with my thoughts and my songs, but I'd really much rather be asleep now.

Hmm I guess I'll just try to fix my bloody Live Messenger and watch a Movie or 2 and hopefully i'll be sleepy by then. Great its 4.30 now it'd be sunrise by the time I sleep i reckon. This is getting old, ranting about not being able to sleep for the 3rd night in a row.