before the sun rises

currently listening to : Alien Ant Farm

I went to bed at 1.30 today with thoughts of waking up earlier then i normally do, i got more then i bargained for though. I woke up at 5am , which does happen, i'm the kind of person that wakes up 3 to 4 times before i get out of bed so normally when i wake up at 5 it's a no brainer, i just close my eyes and go right back to sleep. Strangely i'm too awake to go back to sleep this time, i start noticing the humming of my air conditioner and the buzzing of the florescent light outside my room, don't ask me how i can hear it , i probably have keen sense of hearing, which is why i happen to eves drop on people around me where ever i go, i'm always the one that seem to know things that people didn't tell me about, I'm sorry it's not intentional it's an accident by condition if you would like, although i must say it's very interesting to tune into people's conversations, I seem to be able to tell quite a bit about someone just by listening to a few things they say, but this is also the reason why I can't or at least i find it very hard to work in public places without my ipod, i get distracted by my surrounding's far too easily, so i have to block out the world, i escape into a world where i'm alone with my music, it helps me focus. People ask me how can you work with so much noise? I say it's much nosier for me without my music, I notice too much noise around me, hmm which begs me to ponder do i have ADD(attention deficit disorder)? But it doesn't matter i know my cure it's my tunes, my company through my thicks and thins. Which is why i'm sad that my ipod seems to be breaking down, well it HAS been 5 years since i got it so i guess it's understandable, hence i'm saving up to get a new Ipod as soon as possible, but saving is yet another weakness i have, sad to say.

So anyway back to where i started, since i can't sleep i thought i'd just get up and read some stuffs online like i always do,so i went out and made myself a cup of coffee(my room leads right into the kitchen, for those of you that knows Darryl, yeah my room is just like his in penang), we have a water dispenser machine that has hot and cold water, real handy right? Well i made too much of it this time, as i was gonna make my cup of coffee i thought to myself 'why not make a cold one?' so what i did was fill about 1/5'th of the cup with hot water just enough to dissolve the coffee with, and then the rest with cold water, what happen was that it didn't turn out like i wanted it to, the cold water didn't seem to be cold enough so it just ended up to be a cup of room temperature coffee and it tasted like shit, see coffee is a beverage that should only be drank either cold or hot, it tastes horrible at room temperature like how coke tastes horrible at room temperature. So i just took my cup of less then perfect coffee into my room and sat it down beside my comp, opened my browser and started tabbing out the usual sites i visit, read up on some football news (man city is getting Mancini from Roma? wtf), then i noticed my youtube vid of Alien Ant Farm's attitude was still there so i just played it again for the i don't know must be 10'th time for the day, then it hit me i haven't heard any new songs from them in awhile so i went and find out if they were putting out a new album soon, was devastated to learn they have now unofficially broke up, 2 of it's members went to college so there won't be any new materials from them anytime soon if ever. They were a great band it'll be sad if they never come back but who knows Smashing Pumpkins came back after 7 years since they disband right? I'm starting to feel i write with too much details, but thats the way I am I guess, always noticing the small simple things so it makes senses i guess that i like including small simple details when i write.

gosh this was meant to be an introduction of what i really wanted to write about it seem to have turned into a full out entry by itself. So i think ill just end this post here and write on a separate entry, since it'd be far to heavy of a read at one go. =]



Maybe I act on confused behavior
Maybe waves crash like semi trailer
Maybe Ill spend my off time without you
It seems like we need our own space

And all the time I wasted away
I dont feel good unless you stay
And all the times I chased you away
Simply to catch back up with

Your solitude is welcome
Your attitude is welcome

All you see is red lights behind me
Maybe this isnt what you wanted baby
I dont blame you falling backwards
No ones ever quite confused you this way

And all this time we wasted away
We dont feel good unless were gray
And all the times I chased you away
I simply dont feel good

Your solitude is welcome
Your attitude is welcome

All this time, we heard alarms
Come to find, we fell apart
This whole thing has crashed down, crashed down
All this time, we heard alarms

Your solitude is welcome
Your attitude is welcome

You are welcome