Saturday, December 29, 2007

perfect



love the song love the video love the words perfect it is.


I know we're just like old friends
We just can't pretend
That lovers make amends
We are reasons so unreal
We can't help but feel that something has been lost

But please you know you're just like me
Next time I promise we'll be
Perfect
Perfect
Perfect strangers down the line
Lovers out of time
Memories unwind

So far I still know who you are
But now I wonder who I was...

Angel, you know it's not the end
We'll always be good friends
The letters have been sent on

So please, you always were so free
You'll see, I promise we'll be
Perfect
Perfect strangers when we meet
Strangers on the street
Lovers while we sleep

Perfect
You know this has to be
We always we're so free
We promised that we'd be
Perfect
words by -Smashing Pumpkins

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Romance Kimia Saya.

So last night was pretty eventful, went for My Chemical Romance's concert. Haven't been to a rock gig since what, Linkin Park 4 years ago? Well My Chemical Romance isn't exactly the band of my dreams to watch, but just for the heck of it rite its still rock gig with crazy people jumping about, or so I thought it would be.

Got there one and half hour early , there was already quite a horde of Mcr deranged kids there, whats the best part? It was raining , or rather it was drizzling, truthfully the scene looked alot more like a pasar malam then anything, there was stores all over selling drinks and food like burgers and fishballs on sticks, and pirated Tees, stickers, posters. The most annoying part is that there was like a celcom booth there and they thought it was cool to play Mcr songs real loud there, NO IT'S NOT! Dumb asses, i heard the songs so many times during the hour wait I was already almost sick of Mcr before the gig even started, whats better when they weren't playing Mcr songs? They played Simple Plan! and Good Charlotte brilliant guys totally professional I bet Mcr would have appreciated that. So after an hour of standing around being bombarded with looped Mcr songs we were finally let in to the stadium. Whats funny was that the opening act One Buck Short played right away, we were the first few ones in and they were already playing even before the stadium was barely filled up, and it was filling at a pretty slow rate, even after One Buck Short finished their act the place was just barely half filled.

One Buck Short was pretty good live, then Pop Shuvit played next which amazingly actually sounds better live then when I've heard them on radio they bring a lot of energy live, loud and hard hitting bass and fast tempo the only downer was that the crowd wasn't behind them enough and their songs were a lil draggy looping same melodies over too many times that gets tired fast, but pretty good over all their dj works were pretty cool mixed everything pretty well very Lp if you like really in many ways they are like Lp only without the screaming but if you listened to Lp lately there aren't much from them either.

By the time Pop Shuvit finished the placed was fairly filled up , oh i forgot to mention that it was pretty disappointing the moment i got in cause i can see that they only barricaded one section of the field for the show unlike when Lp came where the whole field was used, so i already knew the crowd wasnt goin to be nearly as big, if you went for the Lp one then it was about 1/3 of what Lp's crowd was like. So after pop shuvit finished the mood was pretty much set as was the sun, you could see all the exited teenage girl's faces , all of them screamed like mad every time the crew members step out to set up the equipments it was pretty laughable cause they got so many false alarms i think half of them lost their voice even before the gig started scream every time they see a crew member scream for every light test scream for every sound check, eventually it took Mcr like 45 mins to come out all the while playing us what sounds like what would be Gerrard's Ipod's songs, from The Strokes to Smashing Pumpkins and Greenday, at least it's a lot better then looping Mcr songs when we're just about to hear it anyways .

I'm not a Mcr fan so pardon me when i say i dint know half the songs they played, what was funny was Gerrard after playing the opening song goin " I'm sorry that My Chemical Romance couldn't make it tonight but you can call use the American Sex Boys if you like" all and all the performance was pretty good they sound the same live as they sound on record which is good but it's just the nature of their song it just not that energetic, once again i'll refer to Lp's gig, people only went really crazy on thier last song Famous Last Words wheres people went that crazy on Lp's opening song thats how much the night contrasted comparing to Lp's gig. All and all it was pretty fun to watch Gerrard live he's very very animated and is very dramatic with lots of gestures and facial expression (in case you're wondering we can see his face on the big screen), quite funny guy too i liked at some point in the middle of the show he went " Omg i'm drowning in sweat, that's good thought, don't you just hate it when you see bands that play and they're just not sweating? its like did you come to play or did you come to just hang out? Well we're not here to hang out! you guys wanna hang out or you guys wanna drown with us?"

In the end it was pretty worth while I guess, not a life changing thing but doesn't hurt to say i was there, whats sad was that i think half of the ppl there were like me, so a lot of the non 'single 'songs ppl there dint know the words to it, but kudos to Mcr for playing their hearts out despite the small and sometimes not so responsive crowd, best song of the night for me would be Cancer, it was the one song that everyone knew and since the back ground was only piano you can really hear the crowd sing this one =] which is actually one of the few songs i like from them too, bummer of the night ? They dint play Ghost of you.

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

Spell




Spotlight shining brightly on my face
I can see you thinking
Yet I feel you looking my way
Empty stage
With nothing but this girl
Who's singing a simple melody
and wearing her heart on her sleeve

And right now
I'll help you
For a moment I can tell I've got to
Cause your lips don't move
And something is happening
Cause your eyes tell me the truth
I've put a spell over you

Beauty emminates from every word that you say
You capture the deepest thought with the purest simplest of ways
but you see
I'm not as graceful like you
Nor am I as elequent
But just a simple melody can change the way that you see me

And right now
I'll help you
For a moment I can tell that I've got to
Cause your lips don't move
Something is happening
Cause your eyes tell me the truth
I've put a spell over you


And all my life I stumble, but and here I am
and I'm perfect
Perfect as I'll ever be
words by-Marie Digby

Saturday, November 17, 2007

The Explosm comics i put up some time ago were great. but these are more, artistic. i likee =D
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Friday, November 9, 2007

so long scarecrow

Saturday, November 3, 2007

fun with figures


Marilyn Manson Sans makeup






John Mayer

Monday, October 29, 2007

Friday, October 26, 2007






digitalbath



its been like forever since the last time i drew a girl.
cause i never do them any justice. here's my first try after a long while lol.
still not doing her much justice. was hoping to do better. oh well first of many to come i guess ;B

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

here's no why

The useless drag of another day
The endless drags of a death rock boy
Mascara sure and lipstick lost
Glitter burned by restless thoughts of being forgotten
And in your sad machines
You'll forever stay
Desperate and displeased-with whoever you are
And your a star
Somwhere-he pulls his hair down-over a frowning smile
A hidden diamond you cannot find
A secret star that cannot shine over to you
May the king of gloom, be forever doomed
And in your sad machines
You'll forever stay
Burning up in speed
Lost inside the dreams, of teen machines
The useless drags, the empty days
The lonely towers of long mistakes
To forgotten faces and faded loves
Sitting still was never enough
And if you're giving in, then your giving up
Cause in your sad machines
You'll forever stay
Burning up in speed
Lost inside the dreams, of teen machines

Saturday, October 20, 2007





Thursday, October 18, 2007

howdoi




How do you get from this

to

this?



answer's simple they say. just keep doing and doing you'll get it eventually. ;B
feels like i've been doing figures forever and not gettin remotely close to what the latter one looks like.


Wednesday, October 3, 2007

echoes,silence,patience and grace



It's been awhile since i last wrote anything so i'll start with this review of the Echoes. silence ,patience and grace.
So I got the new Foo Fighters's albumn and given it a few run through, first thoughts? Well they've sure come a long way since the days of Big Me and Learn to Fly, Foo Fighters have consistently change their sound and style without losing their identity from the hilarious and fun times of Big Me and Learn to Fly to the more serious and hard hitting tunes of Best of You and Times Like This. Time after time Dave Grohl manages to write amazing lyrics from stupid funny ones to heart touching ones, and Foo Fighters produces hits after hits over the years.

It's amazing how Dave Grohl the ex drummer of Nirvana comes out and forms his own band drop the drum sticks pick up a guitar a pen and a mic and makes it all work effortlessly even after being a part of a band of Nirvana's status and knowing an Icon like Kurt Cobain. Dave Grohl just carry on assume the role of front man and who'd ever guess the long haired drummer of Nirvana would become the front man of a powerhouse hugely successful band Foo Fighters.

If you've been a fan of the Foos since way back when then I guess this album is no let down, in any case this album is great unless you only liked Foo Fighters during the times they sounded a bit heavier , because this album has quite a few tracks that are acoustic, which actually are my fav tracks in the album, if you've listened to the Foo Fighters unplugged album that came out some time last year I think and liked it then this album is defiantly for you.

Listen to , Come Alive , Stranger things have happened and But honestly. If you found a liking for thos then get the album =]

Tuesday, October 2, 2007




Tuesday, September 25, 2007

quiet

I'll be the bumble bee behind you baby.
I'll tear up everything inside you, well yeah.
And it stings, and it stings
Sun shines through your openings.
I'll tear up everything inside you.

Hold up, don't say what I think you're gonna say.
Take your time cause I can wait.
It's all on you and I'm not sane.

And if you see my girl could you bring her to me?
She don't like a life with a rock n' roll singer, well yeah.
But we'll spend the rest of our lives in happiness.
I'll wrap this ring around her finger.

Hold up, don't say what I think you're gonna say.
Take your time cause I can wait.
It's all on you and I'm not sane.
You won't see what you mean to me
And you don't feel that you're everything.
For now I'll live with you
Quiet, quiet.

You don't see what you mean to me.
You don't feel like you're everything.
You can take all the time you need.
I hold my breath but I have to breathe.

Hold up, don't say
Hold up, don't say
Hold up, don't say what I think you're gonna say.
Take your time cause I can wait.
It's all on you and I'm not sane.
You won't see what you mean to me
And you don't feel that you're everything.
For now I live with you
Quiet.
Quiet.

words by - Alien Ant Farm

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

perfect


I know we're just like old friends
We just can't pretend
That lovers make amends
We are reasons so unreal
We can't help but feel that something has been lost

But please you know you're just like me
Next time I promise we'll be
Perfect
Perfect
Perfect strangers down the line
Lovers out of time
Memories unwind

So far I still know who you are
But now I wonder who I was...

Angel, you know it's not the end
We'll always be good friends
The letters have been sent on

So please, you always were so free
You'll see, I promise we'll be
Perfect
Perfect strangers when we meet
Strangers on the street
Lovers while we sleep

Perfect
You know this has to be
We always we're so free
We promised that we'd be
Perfect
words by -Smashing Pumpkins

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

when brush meets aerosol

if given an hour to draw or paint what can we normally do? barely a figure sketch or a landscape painting? if given and hour to Alex Pardee and friends this is what they can do


Alex Pardee has stupid insane brush control, while the ither dudes paint with an aerosol can as tho it was a brush i have no idea how the achieve the super thin lines with an aerosol can. Whats cool about this is they work on each others painting and it all still blends in as tho only one person did it all in the end. Here's how they did it.

Sunday, September 16, 2007

big machine

Ecstasy is all you need
Living in the big machine
Oh you're so vain
Now your world is way too fast
Nothing's real and nothing lasts
And I'm aware
I'm in love but you don't care

Turn your anger into lust
I'm still here but you don't trust at all
And I'll be waiting
Love and sex and loneliness
Take what's yours and leave the rest
So I'll survive
God it's good to be alive

I'm torn in pieces
I'm blind and waiting for you
My heart is reeling
I'm blind and waiting for you

Still in love with all your sins
Where you stop and I begin
And I'll be waiting
Living like a house on fire
What you fear is your desire
It's hard to deal
I still love the way you feel

Now this angry little girl
Drowning in this petty world
And I'm who you run to
Swallow all your bitter pills
That's what makes you beautiful
You're all or not
I don't need what you ain't got

I'm torn in pieces
I'm blind and waiting for you
My heart is reeling
I'm blind and waiting for you

words by - goo goo dolls

more subtle then some thing someone contrives

I'm not a big fan of these chain things but okay i'll play along this time.


RULES:

1. The tag victim has to come up with 8 different points about his/her perfect lover.
2. Have to mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
3. Tag eight other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog.
4. If you are tagged the second time, there is NO need to do this again.
5. Lastly, and most importantly, HAVE FUN DOING IT.

so thank you for being that kind of girl.

1. someone as much as a lover is a best friend as well. because we're most comfortable at times with a best friend, if she's both then she's all i need.

2.someone with great sense of humor and a stomach for idiotic sarcasm. just so we'd still have a good laugh even when one of the shitty days turn up and when not everything is sunshine and rainbows.

3.someone thats full of randomness that never fails to surprise , so she'll always make me smile or take my breath away when i least expect.

4.someone honest and real, because ppl are so full of shit these days you never know if ppl are who they say they are anymore.

5.someone with great taste for art, food , music , movies , books, and we shall spend endless days at the marvel of amazing melodies, beautiful strings of words and hunting for more things to blow our mind

6.someone that is able to inspire,move and motivate me, because i'm a lousy self motivator so it'd be nice to lean on someone while they lean on you. it takes one to have the other.

7.someone that knows me through and through so she'd keep me grounded when i lose my way and i'm not myself, holding on and believing in me when i doubt myself.

8.someone that's confident, independent but not vain, strong but sensitive , i could go on and on but sometimes its the smallest of things the counts and its the smallest of things that makes someone so very special when you discover it, i'll let you know when i know then.

9. and oh someone that's good with spelling and needs correct all the mistake she sees. bcuz i sux wit teh spilling n nids a spillchecker.

i won't be tagging anyone because for one all the people i know that has a blog have already been tagged and, yeah thats reason enough.

this doubt is screaming is my face,
in this familiar place sheltered and concealed,
and if this night won't let me rest don't let me second guess what i know to be real,
put away all i know for tonight,
and maybe i just might,
learn to let it go,
take my security from me,
then maybe finally,
i won't have to know everything,

i got nothing left to defend
tho i cannot pretend
that everything makes sense
but does it really matter now?
if i do not know how
to figure this thing out.

i'm against myself again
trying to fit these pieces in
walking on a cloud of dust tryin to get to you


Tuesday, September 11, 2007

chadamlives.


Chadam is a character by alex pardee originally designed for the band The Used as an icon of imagination. Chadam's story got so popular over the internet it's going to be made into a 22 series 3D animation by warner bros. for more info click on the alex pardee link. if you like to know more about the story of chadam you could visit www.myspace.com/chadamlives

Saturday, September 8, 2007

keepmoving

There are traces of the people
And the faces I have known
As the bus stops at the building
The place that I called home
Thought I'd left forever
Never thought that I'd return
But everyday, I make my way
I guess I never learn

I never meant to hurt you
No matter what I said
I never did desert you
You are still inside my head
The earth will keep on turning
The sun will always rise
Don't know why, seems like I
I'm always so surprised

I can't sleep at night
Life is black and white
And all I can do
In a world without you
Is keep moving
Keep moving
Is keep moving
Keep moving

I'm living, but I'm nowhere
Wondering what to do
I know that I am someone
But I can't remember who
Words are never simple

And looking back in time
Has only shown me what I know
There's nothing left that's mine

Staring at the skyline
The light is almost through
It's going out of focus
It's breaking into two
So I leave again like always
And I try to find my way
It'll be awhile, but I know I'll
Be coming back someday

I can't sleep at night
Life is black and white
And all I can do
In a world without you
Is keep moving
Keep moving
Is keep moving
Keep moving
words by - Ivy

Friday, September 7, 2007

save room

Say that you'll stay a little
dont say bye-bye tonight
say you'll be mine
just a little bit of love
is worth a moment of your time.
Knockin' on your door just a little
it's so cold outside tonight
let's get a fire burning
oh I know I'll keep it burning bright
if your stay, wont you save, save

Save room for my love
Save room for a moment to be with me
Save room for my love
Save a little, save a little for me
Won't you save a little
Save a little for me

This just might hurt a little
love hurts sometimes when you do it right
dont be afraid of a little bit of pain
pleasure is on the other side.
Let down your guard just a little
i'll keep you safe in these arms of mine
hold on to me pretty baby
you will see I can be all you need if you stay
won't you save, save

Oh c'mon, make time to live a little
don't let this moment slip by tonight
you'll never know what you're missing
'till you try, ill keep you satisfied if you stay
won't you save, save
words by- John Legend

Friday, August 31, 2007



If you feel shitty lately you should try settin this as your desktop background. it doesnt make much sense to me but it makes me laugh/smile everytime i see it. cute. =B

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

nothing hurts now

There was a time, you make me believe, that I'd receive
Something that would hold, & wouldn't leave me cold
& there was a line you made me cross,
So the two of us would have the strength to bare,
The crosses we couldn't share

But nothing hurts now, that didn't hurt before
So I won't pretend that it was the end of the world
Cause nothing hurts now

There was a time, I made you smile, & for a while
I was beautiful to you, I was beautiful like you
But these things often pass, & for you they just wouldn't last
So I was first to know, when you had to go

But nothing hurts now, that didn't hurt before
So I won't pretend that it was the end of the world
Cause nothing hurts now

words by- Magnet

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

rush

Guess i'm just a gust of wind
Moved on quickly
Almost unoticed
But quite powerful
Our rush could easily have blown
Your defenses down
Could easily have blown
Your defenses down
Did you hear me whispering Hello
Did you see me waving goodbye?
Did you notice...
that I didn't cry
I guess I just brushed through your mind
More gently
Than I intended to
Not fresh enough
Just a breeze
I can make you fly
High
I can make you fly
High
Did you hear me whispering hello
Did you see me waving goodbye
Did you notice...
That I didn't cry
Your taste I don't mind
It was worth the try
And though uninvited
I came by
Did you notice...
That I didn't cry
words by- Ingvild Hasund

Saturday, August 25, 2007

the pacemaker

Slow down the pace,
I have never known me this out of place
If stupid acting dumb, is the shape of things to come
And I ad up that sum
Then this is where I can't get back from

Take my hand, I will follow,
Only you can slow this down
Take my hand and I will mellow,
'Cause only you can hold me like a torniquet,
And make me stay, here with you

No ego left to bruise,
at least there's something good in most bad news
I just don't want to cruise
With anyone of the young dudes
'Cause round for round,
only uncool will travel on gravel ground

So take my hand, I will follow
Only you can slow this down
Take my hand and I will mellow,
'Cause only you can slow this down
You can slow this down

So take my hand, I will follow
Only you can slow this down
Take my hand and I will mellow,
'Cause only you can hold me like a torniquet,
And make me stay, here with you
words by -Magnet

Thursday, August 16, 2007

hell of a start.



If you watch football and if you're a Man Utd fan, i bet you're shaking already. Week 2 and not only did we not to manage get a single win while Chelsea clocked in 2 wins already, we've lost Wayne Rooney for 2 months due to leg injury and now Cristiano Ronaldo for 3 games, 2 of our biggest player gone when we need them the most now to jump start our game after stuttering the last 2. Not quite the start i was hoping for this season but it's alrite Tevez put up a good show last night filling in for Rooney, i think we'd grind it out and come good when all our players are back namely Gary Neville and Luis Saha.

Monday, August 13, 2007

fine again

It seems like every day’s the same
and I’m left to discover on my own
It seems like everything is gray
and there’s no color to behold
They say it’s over and I’m fine again, yeah
Try to stay sober feels like I’m dying here

And I am aware now of how
everything’s gonna be fine one day
Too late, I’m in hell I am prepared now,
seems everyone’s gonna be fine
One day too late, just as well

I feel the dream in me expire
and there’s no one left to blame it on
I hear you label me a liar
‘cause I can’t seem to get this through
You say it’s over, I can sigh again, yeah
Why try to stay sober when I’m dying here

And I am aware now of how
everything’s gonna be fine one day
Too late, I’m in hell
I am prepared now,
seems everyone’s gonna be fine
One day too late; just as well

And I’m not scared now.
I must assure you,
you’re never gonna get away
And I’m not scared now.
And I’m not scared now. No…

I am aware now of how
everything’s gonna be fine one day
Too late, I’m in hell
I am prepared now
seems everyone’s gonna be fine
One day too late, just as well
I am prepared now,
seems everything’s gonna be fine for me
For me; for myself.
For me, for me, for myself
For me, for me, for myself
words by- Seether

Sunday, August 12, 2007

It's been awhile

My term ends this Tuesday and all the shit for the past 3 months can be put to rest, sigh as much as i want to I'm not actually in that much of a mood to write I don't know why, just feel..bleak, not that i'm too sure what it was that i wanted to say, there's just a void i don't know how to fill, i've keep myself busy rather well, but as this sem is drawing to an end i can't help but wonder with all the free time i'm going to have soon will I mutilate my self once again as my thoughts are allowed to manifest upon them self, It's been awhile though..

And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I first saw you
And it's been awhile
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
And it's been awhile
Since I could call you

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means

And it's been awhile
Since I can say that I wasn't addicted
And it's been awhile
Since I can say I love myself as well
And it's been awhile
Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do
And it's been awhile
But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again

Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day!

And it's been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry
And it's been awhile
Since I've seen the way the candles light your face
And it's been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you taste

And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry

words by - Staind

the crying tree of mercury

This is the song I've been singing my whole life
I've been waiting like a knife
To cut open your heart
And bleed my soul to you
I did it all for you
You and you and you and you
This is the sound I've been making my whole life
I've been waiting for this night
To clear up all the talk
Althought I'm selfish to a fault
Is it selfish it's you I want
You I did it all for you
This love will stand as long as you
There's really no excuse
I did it all for you
These are the tears I've been crying my whole life
Like an ocean of desire
I'm reaching thru the noise
Across the dusk of time
Within the lilting lies
I am singing out to you

words by- Smashing Pumpkins

Thursday, August 9, 2007

hollow years

He's just the kind of man
You hear about
Who leaves his family for
An easy out
They never saw the signs
He never said a word
He couldn't take another day

Carry me to the shoreline
Bury me in the sand
Walk me across the water
And maybe you'll understand

Once the stone
You're crawling under
Is lifted off your shoulders
Once the cloud that's raining
Over your head disappears
The noise that you'll hear
Is the crashing down of hollow years

She's not the kind of girl
You hear about
She'll never want another
She'll never be without
She'll give you all the signs
She'll tell you everything
Then turn around and walk away

Carry me to the shoreline
Bury me in the sand
(Into the waves)
Walk me across the water
And maybe you'll understand
words by- dream theater

Wednesday, August 8, 2007

got the life

if you've known me for awhile you'd probly know I'am prone to fucking up my phone's screens, everyone still remembers my 3100 with a self drawn background, and more recently my z520i which flips out like mad and the screen can go scrolling of the sides and stuff looking like a gnarly mini jackpot machine, however its a bitch to write smses with in spite of how cool it is to show people your sick screen. I got that fixed like last dec and woop pi doo it's screwed up again. So i've managed to screw up candy bar phones, flip phones so lets see, i think i'd tap into the realm of slide phones baby, 3rd time's a charm rite? ;B behold the S500i ( i never know what the i at the back stands for. is there a diff between have an i at the back and not?)


in repair

Too many shadows in my room
Too many hours in this midnight
Too many corners in my mind
So much to do to set my heart right
Oh it's taking so long i could be wrong, i could be ready
Oh but if i take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unsteady
I am in repair, i am in repair

Stood on the corner for a while
To wait for the wind to blow down on me
Hoping it takes with it my old ways
And brings some brand new luck upon me
Oh it's taking so long i could be wrong, i could be ready
Oh but if i take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unsteady
I am in repair, i am in repair

And now i'm walking in the park
All of the birds they dance below me
Maybe when things turn green again
It will be good to say you know me

Oh it's taking so long i could be wrong, i could be ready
Oh but if i take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unsteady
Oh i'm never really ready, yeah, oh, i'm never really ready
I'm in repair, i'm not together but i'm getting there
words by-john mayer

in time

All the words are calling
Got time on my own
There's no destination
Wondering whether I'll feel it again

Keep my hands off the wheel
'Cause there's nowhere else to go

Take some time
Just hang around awhile
Like to sit this silent moment out
I don't want to lose or let you down
Time's just gonna change itself around

The autumn leaves are falling
Falling down on me
And there's nothing I can do
And there's nothing I can say
That's gonna change the way I feel

Keep my hands off the wheel
'Cause there's nowhere else to go

Take some time
Just hang around awhile
Like to sit this silent moment out
I don't want to lose or let you down
Time's just gonna change itself around

Take this time
Just hang around awhile
Like to sit this silent moment out
I don't wanna lose or let you down
Time's just gonna change itself
Change itself around

I feel it's true
All alone without you
I feel it's true
'Cause you're running with the wind
And you're running with your life
Won't you come inside
words by-zero7

my beating heart baby

here's somtin stupid/funny my friend sent me awhile ago. love is sensation caused by temptation a guy stick his dick into girl's location to increase the population for the next generation avoid penetration for the satisfaction do u need further explaination or u need a demostration? lol funny to some awfull to others i guess

Baby is this love for real?
Let me in your arms to feel
the beating of your heart baby.
The beating of your heart baby.

In spite of you,
even out of view,
still I love all of you.
I do. Yeah..
words by -head automatica

Sunday, August 5, 2007

shoot frank

One last vein to poke made it too dark to see this
Scenery slips then line up to go in the ground and leave us
So repeat this till I'm sick and I won't feed this
To my little girl who kept me in this world to beat this
As a little kid taught to follow Jesus
Get to the front of the line I'm bein' lead by elitists
So when I speak words that I don't mean
It's like I'm only in a cloud to wonder what serene is
Unable to wake and delete the reasons
Or be the same bed I made up to sleep with demons
Whether sick sane of a pattern repeated
If I spit pain I knew how to relieve it
If at sixteen I had started to treat it
Till my shit changed whether or not I would need it
To trace back to the face before the fetus
If the departure was wrong from the gate then she is

Trigger finger itch
The son of a snitch
I'm the rat's favorite son
Last to pal and cut
Slit to bleed the rust
By the last heart I've won
We roll under covers waiting
I've tied off a limb debating
If all of the names forsaken
Spell out what I'm takin'
Watching the skin pop
I would do anything to
Tell you what I've been late to
Fix up my head and escape to
Where I can rest my eyes

The sun says wake up with a beam in my eyes
Clutchin' the bed like she's still by my side part of me died
Even when I prescribed still just to be ostracized
'Cuz she don't really know if she wants to ride or drive
While no nooses long enough to hang my excuses
Whether I'm dead, gun to my head, or reclusive
The end is close almost no need for money
Yet when I wished for death nobody took my life from me
If I cannot see what's right in front of me
And the lights on there still wouldn't be enough to leave
I fixed me when I broke the aggression
But I'm still attracted to my beautiful depression
If I felt emotions I learned to suppress 'em
Till I'm ready to sleep I'll have found a place to rest then
No thanks to angst I learned my lesson
And can erase the face that can't answer the questions

Trigger finger itch the son of a snitch
I'm the rat's favorite son
And by the time I'm back
That heart that beats so black
Let it shine like his gun
We roll under covers waiting
I've tied off a limb debating
If all of the names forsaken
Spell out what I'm taking
Watching the skin pop
words by - cage (feat darryl palumbo)

o.lover

What's the worst thing that could happen?
We could change our minds.
That seems to be the hottest topic at this time.
We're sitting around in the meditation, dragging, chasing,
Wonderin?whose holdin?whose got the will to draw the line.

I know you've got something burning up inside,
It's so unhealthy but so good for me, oh!
Said if I didn't know, and if I didn't know, well if I didn't know that you loved me would you tempt me?
Well God only knows our contradiction's to quitting, is a hate to love relationship thing.
A fire under you is so fulfilling,
I fear there's nothing more.

I'm giving, giving you, the choke hold,
My flirting with disaster is modern love.
Ugggh you, you're so bold,
My wanting to kiss you still is not enough.
I'm getting over, all the comments.
Unfriendly statements made by people are nonsense.
I'm getting stronger, by the minute.
And once I slip into position I'll swing you and turn you all around.

You are the sweetest thing I've found since whenever,
You're the only way my time is measured.
You might be the silent type,
But your advertising louder now.
It's crazy how you're killing me.
Woo, you're killing me, but I like your

Red top and matching bottoms.
You know the one, the ones you got on,
Pull them over your skinny self
But don't cover your tattoo.
Woo, cause I like to look at you, yeah,
I love that smell on you,
And I got your special place against this face for tasting too.

And I like it natural,
No need for chemicals.
Sparkening up my senses
You're making it sense
You're calling it sexual.

And you're going to get yours, my lady.
Might even be today.
And it ain't no thing 'cause I'll be rolling right along with you-woo-woo.

You are the sweetest thing I've found since whenever.
You're the only way my time is measured.
You might be the silent type.
But you're advertising louder now.
It's crazy how you're killing me.
And give us both a break.
And to give us back a taste when the way things were before they made the laws,
And to give us both a chance,
But it won't be the last romance cause when the weekend starts the guilty party's on.

words by - Jason Mraz

Friday, August 3, 2007

feel

Come and hold my hand
I wanna contact the living
Not sure I understand
This role I've been given
I sit and talk to God
And he just laughs at my plans
My head speaks a language
I don't understand

I just wanna feel
Real love feel the home that I live in
Cos I got too much life
Running through my veins
Going to waste
I don't wanna die
But I ain't keen on living either
Before I fall in love
I'm preparing to leave her

Scare myself to death
That's why I keep on running
Before I've arrived
I can see myself coming
I just wanna feel
Real love feel the home that I live in
Cos I got too much life
Running through my veins
Going to waste
And I need to feel
Real love and the love ever after
I can not get enough

I just wanna feel
Real love feel the home that I live in
I got too much love
Running through my veins
To go to waste

I just wanna feel
Real love and the love ever after
There's a hole in my soul
You can see it in my face
It's a real big place
words by - robbie williams

Sunday, July 29, 2007

morning view

Its 5 and I just got back from watching Simpsons The Movie and yet another night spent in Ac foosing, and watching the blur masses of people as they come and go, surrounded by dampened noises of some simple plan back ground music being played, giggling girls, macho macha's ramblings laced with pool balls colliding and the ping and pangs of the foos balls hitting the metal back panel signifying a goal scored and often accompanied with cheers, laughters and trash talk there after. I watched as the water vapors swirled around my cold coke can in my hand then i smiled cause it reminds me of a certain Mr A-Z ' I can save you from unoriginal dum-dums who wouldn't care if you commm-plete them or not, So while I got a short attention span with a coke in my hand, because i rather have the afternoon relax and understand.." and then i snap back and made a mental note, 'you drift away from reality too much this shit gotta stop happening'. I guess despite the masses of people and the high decibels of volume the roaming 'chun chicks' were all still not interesting enough for me, in spite of the 'happening-ness'
I'm retarded I think. Jarren'd agree in a heart beat I know. Do you ever wonder what happens to the words that we send? do they bend do they break from the flight that they take, and come back together again with a whole new meaning to the matter of our love's defense at least be sympathetics to the time i spent'. =] someone once told me 'regurgitating lyrics won't do'...

I'm floating down a river
Oars freed from their holes long ago
Lying face up on the floor of my vessel
I marvel at the stars
And feel my heart overflow

Further down the river

Two weeks without my lover
I'm in this boat alone
Floating down a river named emotion
Will I make it back to shore
Or drift into the unknown

Further down the river

I'm building an antenna
Transmissions will be sent when I am through
Maybe we'll meet again further down the river
And share what we both discovered...
Then revel in the view

Further down the river

words by- Incubus

Saturday, July 28, 2007

alone i break

it's actually quite amusingly ironic that I'm posting lyrics by Korn some of you may know why but,yeah im dead tired to cerita why rite now so, maybe some other time.so yeah..

Pick me up
been bleeding too long
Right here, right now
I'll stop it some how

I will make it go away
can't be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
these feelings will be gone
these feelings will be gone

Now I see the times they change
leaving doesn't seems so strange
I am hoping I can find
where to leave my hurt behind
All this shit I seem to take
all alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?

Shut me off
I am ready,
Heart stops
I stand alone
Can't be on my own

Am I going to leave this place?
What is it I'm running from?
is there nothing more to come? (am I Gunna leave this place?)
Is it always black in space?
Am I going to take it's place?
Am I going to leave this race? (Am I going to leave this race?)
I guess god's up in this place?
what is it that I've become?
is there something more to come? (more to come)

words by - Korn

Friday, July 27, 2007

bodies

Cast the pearls aside, of a simple life of need
Come into my life forever
The crumbled cities stand as known
Of the sights you have been shown
Of the hurt you call your own
Love is suicide

The empty bodies stand at rest
Casualties of their own flesh
Afflicted by their dispossession
But no bodies ever knew
Nobodys
No bodies felt like you
Nobodys
Love is suicide

Now we drive the night, to the ironies of peace
You can't help deny forever
The tragedies reside in you
The secret sights hide in you
The lonely nights divide you in two
All my blisters now revealed
In the darkness of my dreams
In the spaces in between us
But no bodies ever knew
Nobodys
No bodies felt like you
Nobodys
Love is suicide
words by- Smashing Pumpkins

Thursday, July 26, 2007

forgive my indecision

Eyesuckink.com has been updated and now has a new layout , a cleaner one but more importantly there are tons of new artwork uploaded, i don't know why but i love Alex Pardee's work and always feel i can relate to it somehow even thought most of his work doesn't mean anything and is pretty twisted and abstract , Maybe its just the mood you get it's just so emotionally charged. Someone once told me ' i see the other side in your drawings, i see softer side in it despite of how twisted it looks, i don't know why', i guess thats about what I'd say about alex's work seeing i pretty much rip off him most of the time.



speaking of which this just happened to play while i was writing and i could not at any point of my life remember not relating to this song, i'm sure alot of people knows this one and feels the same way too. brilliant Brandon Byod, btw did you know Brandon Byod practices lucid dreaming? Wicked stuff probably where he draws inspiration from. I only ever remember having one once, i hardly get any dreams. Hey to think about it Alex Pardee says alot of his drawings are based on his dreams too, hmm. Anyways..

seven a.m.,
the garbage truck beeps as it backs up
and I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away.
Could I push rewind?
The credits traverse signifying the end but I missed the best part.
Could we please go back to start?

Forgive my indecision

Then again, you're always first when no one's on your side.
But then again, a day will come when I want off that ride.

eleven a.m.,
by now you would think that I would be up
but my bedsheets shade the heat of choices I've made.
And what did I find?
I never thought I could want someone so much
'cause now you're not here and I'm knee deep in
that old fear.

Forgive my indecision,I am only a man

Then again, you're always first when no one's on your side.
But then again, a day will come when I want off that ride.

Twelve pm and my dusty telephone rings.
Heavy head up from my pillow, who could it be?
I hope it's you.

words by - Incubus

my stupid mouth

When I think about it i often question myself why I have the need to question everything. Not just everything to do with me even everything has next to no relation with me. Why do I bother with things I need not bother with why do i delve into things I don't really actually care for. Why am I even bothering to write this down, I need to vent i guess.

Other then that I also like to think or rather i don't think it i just act as though i know a lot or know better then people with no actual intention of illustrating such facts. If you tell me about something cool that i already know off and probably did some research on, chances are i'd tell you that there is something better, like for instance if you tell me how cool a new Nokia phone is and you plan to buy one,chances are I'd tell how much cooler an Iphone is and rant on about it giving you 57 reasons why the Iphone beats the Nokia phone so badly, which often times lead to people thinking I'm just trying to out-do them or down play what ever their views are on.

Well pardon me for sharing then, I'm absurd in that way i guess. When i beg to differ i guess i go way out to show people why. Which is a waste of effort and time most of the time cause people already would have made up their minds on their views and you can throw them 825001 reasons on why you're right plus a PB&J sandwich,you're still gonna be wrong no matter what, well I could be wrong 825001 over but at the end of the day the question is why bother? I'm tired of debating already, If I'm right and you're right who's wrong then?

'I'm never speaking up again it only hurts me'
'I rather be a mystery then she desert me'
'Oh I'm never speaking up again, starting now'
'One more thing'
'Why is it my fault?'
'So maybe I try too hard'
'But it's all because of this desire'
'I just wanna be liked'
'I just wanna be funny'
'Looks like the jokes on me'
'So call me captain backfire'
words by - John Mayer


Sunday, July 22, 2007

hate me.

i have to block out thoughts of you
so i don’t lose my head
they crawl in like a cockroach
leaving babies in my bed

dropping little reels of tape
to remind me that i’m alone
playing movies in my head
that make a porno feel like home

there's a burning in my pride
a nervous bleeding in my brain
an ounce of peace is all i want for you
will you never call again

and will you never say that you loved me just to put it in my face
and will you never try to reach me it is i that wanted space

hate me today
hate me tomorrow
hate me for all the things i didn’t do for you

hate me in ways
yea ways hard to swallow
hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

i’m sober now for three whole months
it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
the one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing i wont touch again

in my sick way i want to thank you
for holding my head up late at night
while i was busy waging wars on myself
you were trying to stop the fight

you never doubted my warped opinions
on things like suicidal hate
you made me compliment myself
when it was way to hard to take

so i’ll drive so fucking far away
that i never cross your mind
and do whatever it takes in your heart
to leave me behind

hate me today
hate me tomorrow
hate me for all the things i didn’t do for you

hate me in ways
yea ways hard to swallow
hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

with a sad heart i say bye to you and wave
kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that i had made
and like a baby boy i never was a man
until i saw your blue eyes cry and i held your face in my hand

and then i fell down yelling make it go away
just make her smile come back and shine just like it use to be
and then she whispered how can you do this to me

words by - Blue October.

Saturday, July 21, 2007

cherry waves

due to inability to ever do work early there is figures,figures and figures again. =]
by the way Project bazooka's penang invasion at laundrybar was wicked, sadly the crowd there was, less then rock savvy i guess. Wish i could have spent more time with Zhuiie tho, it's okay we'll hang out more when the girl comes back for the summer holls. so, in conclusion. I say in conclusion cause thats the only thing i remember from high school about writing. anyways as always ill leave you with.


In a sea of waves
We hug the same plank
Just as I had rehearsed it over in my brain
(I saw your end)

If the waves suck you in, and you drown

If like you should sink down beneath
I'll swim down. Would you? Would You?

You hang anchors over my neck
I liked it at first
But the more you you laughed, the crazier I came

And the waves suck you in, and you drown

If like you should sink down beneath

I'll swim way swim down. Would you?
Is that what you want?
You...
Well that's what you've got

Wave...after...wave...

If like you should sink down beneath, I'll swim down,
Would you?

Is that what you want?
With you
Is this what you want?
With you, you

Escape, below

words by -
Deftones